Hi! It's supposed to be Halloween today but since our country didn't celebrate it so I guess it's just like any normal day. I am now writing this post to.. I don't know, help myself solve my own problems? Relieve the burden in myself? Whatever.
It had been my 16th birthday on October 9th.. And I must say that it was one of the best birthday I've ever celebrate. Early morning before school my family surprised me with a cake, then at school I got another surprise from moi freunden. The most important thing is that I was surrounded by people whom I loved and cared, people who mattered in my life actually remembered my birthday and celebrated it with me. I had three small celebration the first is at Lemongrass with my family, the second having pizza at home with my friends from church, and last dinner at Tier Sierra with schoolmates. I can't tell how grateful I am to have such people in my life and if they read this then know that I'm so thankful to have you in my existence.
Moving on..
I found myself in a major dilemma right now because I still don't know what I'll do in the future. I have no freaking idea about what I wanted to be, what major I'm going to take, and so on. My supposedly dream of studying in Germany had crushed 50% because I failed GI.. Such a shame I know, and my parents were blaming me for giving up. They say I'm too weak and so easy to surrender, that I'm such a pathetic child.. which is true in a way. I don't want to be weak. They were giving me lectures about how I'm such a disappoinment in our car before going to school, which resulting in me crying at school. I know right: I'm such a loser.
I saw people around me, people my age, who already have their shits together in envy. How come they could get their success at such a young age and have their life together already? People who already got accepted in their dream university, who already got scholarship, who have so many awards and stuffs.. Then I realize that I've been doing my teenage year wrong. I didn't do anything to have something that me and my parents could be proud of. I know there's a lot of chances I'm not taking, lots of things I should've done, and I regretted that. So from now on I promise, not only here but also for real, that I will take chances on whatever things life threw at me. I mean you only have one life better be sorry for risks I've taken than regretting not taking that in the first place.
As for my grade 11 score.. It was on fire. Literally. Not in a good way. I got C- for all of my Math exams, C for my Biology exam, and another C for physics. Nevermind chemistry, even thinking about how I failed that test made me wanna throw up. My scores are shit and if I couldn't keep it up now, then good bye forever for chances of going to Germany. That was my main goal and I already wasted half of my time not doing anything that will boost my chances. Dear God give me some motivations and help me through the rest of my high school life.. For I believe that if I put you in every things I did it would leave good results. I can't fix the mistakes I've made in the past but there's always the future.. which I can fix for the better.
OKAYYY that's it my pathetic piece of a post! Now I'm going to take a bath and go see my brother's little concert, then I'm thinking of applying to celfit since LOOK AT MY THIGHS ITS VERY FLABBY, AND DONT LET ME STARTED ON MY ARMS. I hope you're having much better condition than mine and if we're on the same page then know that I'M HERE FOR YOU BROS! WE'LL PROVE EM HOW STRONG WE ACTUALLY ARE! Yay thanks for reading and have a nice day!
It had been my 16th birthday on October 9th.. And I must say that it was one of the best birthday I've ever celebrate. Early morning before school my family surprised me with a cake, then at school I got another surprise from moi freunden. The most important thing is that I was surrounded by people whom I loved and cared, people who mattered in my life actually remembered my birthday and celebrated it with me. I had three small celebration the first is at Lemongrass with my family, the second having pizza at home with my friends from church, and last dinner at Tier Sierra with schoolmates. I can't tell how grateful I am to have such people in my life and if they read this then know that I'm so thankful to have you in my existence.
Moving on..
I found myself in a major dilemma right now because I still don't know what I'll do in the future. I have no freaking idea about what I wanted to be, what major I'm going to take, and so on. My supposedly dream of studying in Germany had crushed 50% because I failed GI.. Such a shame I know, and my parents were blaming me for giving up. They say I'm too weak and so easy to surrender, that I'm such a pathetic child.. which is true in a way. I don't want to be weak. They were giving me lectures about how I'm such a disappoinment in our car before going to school, which resulting in me crying at school. I know right: I'm such a loser.
I saw people around me, people my age, who already have their shits together in envy. How come they could get their success at such a young age and have their life together already? People who already got accepted in their dream university, who already got scholarship, who have so many awards and stuffs.. Then I realize that I've been doing my teenage year wrong. I didn't do anything to have something that me and my parents could be proud of. I know there's a lot of chances I'm not taking, lots of things I should've done, and I regretted that. So from now on I promise, not only here but also for real, that I will take chances on whatever things life threw at me. I mean you only have one life better be sorry for risks I've taken than regretting not taking that in the first place.
As for my grade 11 score.. It was on fire. Literally. Not in a good way. I got C- for all of my Math exams, C for my Biology exam, and another C for physics. Nevermind chemistry, even thinking about how I failed that test made me wanna throw up. My scores are shit and if I couldn't keep it up now, then good bye forever for chances of going to Germany. That was my main goal and I already wasted half of my time not doing anything that will boost my chances. Dear God give me some motivations and help me through the rest of my high school life.. For I believe that if I put you in every things I did it would leave good results. I can't fix the mistakes I've made in the past but there's always the future.. which I can fix for the better.
OKAYYY that's it my pathetic piece of a post! Now I'm going to take a bath and go see my brother's little concert, then I'm thinking of applying to celfit since LOOK AT MY THIGHS ITS VERY FLABBY, AND DONT LET ME STARTED ON MY ARMS. I hope you're having much better condition than mine and if we're on the same page then know that I'M HERE FOR YOU BROS! WE'LL PROVE EM HOW STRONG WE ACTUALLY ARE! Yay thanks for reading and have a nice day!
