it's 5 am and
i haven't catch any wink of sleep at all.
and i don't know why i'm writing this blog post
probably as another excuse to not sleep?
even though the bags under my eyes beg for a rest
i'm sorry i'm not good with words and i probably am trying too hard that it sounds pathetic
anyway
might as well use this chance to rant
it's friday and the holiday is coming to an end
i can't say i miss school tho
i mean this summer had been great
one of the best holiday, even.
why, you ask?
for one, my crush start texting with me for the first time since ive been crushing on him since roughly the beginning of 10th grade
yes you read that right
and i'm just beyond words (ok thats slightly overrated) because i usually stare at his profile wondering things and making up scenarios in my head
i mean this things didn't happen in real life right
i would be glad to tell you more but im actually worried he will read this so yeah
my stomach just grumbled
and i want my early snacks
but looking at my tummy, and flabby arms, and thick as fuck thighs?????
im amazed they didn't start screaming whale on the loose at me
seriously
thru summer seems like the only thing i do beside sleep is eat. and holding my phone for unknown reason. i never do productive things honestly and the calories from the foods i consume start building up on certain unwanted parts of my body
i mean cant u just stay on my boobs dear fat at least then ill be happy
moving on
i'm actually nervous about this new class thing
bcs honestly? i dont know if i could easily adapt to new surroundings
in high school i saw that friendships grew stronger and couldnt easily be broken like before
and these people have been closer to each other bfore, i dont think i can just get between them and try to be friends???
or maybe i can
screw me im such a socially awkward person at times
btw seeing these people posting pretty pica of themselves at instagram wearing loads of make up with hair on point and all
such a blow to my already non existent self esteem
brb crying in the corner
anyway
why is this post so depressing
blame my lack of sleep
and my crush who once again broke my heart
just like everybody did
gotta go
catch u later!
i haven't catch any wink of sleep at all.
and i don't know why i'm writing this blog post
probably as another excuse to not sleep?
even though the bags under my eyes beg for a rest
i'm sorry i'm not good with words and i probably am trying too hard that it sounds pathetic
anyway
might as well use this chance to rant
it's friday and the holiday is coming to an end
i can't say i miss school tho
i mean this summer had been great
one of the best holiday, even.
why, you ask?
for one, my crush start texting with me for the first time since ive been crushing on him since roughly the beginning of 10th grade
yes you read that right
and i'm just beyond words (ok thats slightly overrated) because i usually stare at his profile wondering things and making up scenarios in my head
i mean this things didn't happen in real life right
i would be glad to tell you more but im actually worried he will read this so yeah
my stomach just grumbled
and i want my early snacks
but looking at my tummy, and flabby arms, and thick as fuck thighs?????
im amazed they didn't start screaming whale on the loose at me
seriously
thru summer seems like the only thing i do beside sleep is eat. and holding my phone for unknown reason. i never do productive things honestly and the calories from the foods i consume start building up on certain unwanted parts of my body
i mean cant u just stay on my boobs dear fat at least then ill be happy
moving on
i'm actually nervous about this new class thing
bcs honestly? i dont know if i could easily adapt to new surroundings
in high school i saw that friendships grew stronger and couldnt easily be broken like before
and these people have been closer to each other bfore, i dont think i can just get between them and try to be friends???
or maybe i can
screw me im such a socially awkward person at times
btw seeing these people posting pretty pica of themselves at instagram wearing loads of make up with hair on point and all
such a blow to my already non existent self esteem
brb crying in the corner
anyway
why is this post so depressing
blame my lack of sleep
and my crush who once again broke my heart
just like everybody did
gotta go
catch u later!
