I'd Have You

Good afternoon! First post in 2016 yayyy. So I'm going to post a poem that I found a few weeks ago, someone shared in on LINE and I thought it was really beautiful I even read it for God knows how many times. Credits to this brilliant official account called "Phospenous" who is now my daily obessesion!❤️

I'd Have You

I'd have you

at 8 in the morning

with your wind-swept hair,

and drenched cardigan,

wet from the rain outside.

I'd have you with your tired eyes

and raspy voice,

on school afternoons-

your red nose

and feverish skin.

I'd have you

and your loud lough

the one you hate so much,

the one I'd beg to hear.

I'd have you

when we were 21

and you find somebody new.

Someone brighter and stronger

than I-

could ever be for you.

I'd have you

when we're 25

and tears have flooded

your beautiful face

as you stand in my front porch

asking me

to be the one who stays.

I'd have you

when you're 30

and you find your dream

in a suitcase

6,700 miles away

as I wait for you in Manila,

writing letters

I would never send,

knowing you deserve better

than my flat words

on pen and paper.

I'd have you

when we're 41

when you pout away

all my defences

so you can fall asleep

to the mediocre poems

I wrote about you

when we were 17

and scared to take the fall.

I'd have you

when we're 59

and you can't stop fretting

about the silver in your hair

or the creases on your forehead.

I will tell you you're perfect-

still,

every single day,

until you forget

about the insignificance

the years

have made on your body

when your soul

has kept mine alive.

I'd have you

when we're 70

and dance with you

in a thunderstorm

with my two left feet,

even if our neighbors tell us

that we're 50 years too late.

I'd have you

when we're 80,

laughing, 

about magic and miracles

and making it this far.

I'd have you

when we're 87

and you smile at me

on your hospital bed

but cannot remember my name.

I'd have you

every day,

and every night,

for as long my heart will let me.

But for now I have to wake up

because we're 17 again,

and I was dreaming

when you jumped off the cliff

with my hand in yours.

And you are looking at me

with your eager eyes

in the middle of the cafeteria

where you have given your heart

to someone else,

as reality dawns in

like an avalance on Christmas day,

that I can never really have you

the way you will always have me.

"I'd Have You" - Ennamoured